When everything seems to be going well, keep quiet & keep it to yourself. It's a taboo.
Freaking hot day but I guess I can get it through except that... Hmm... the card I picked is a reversed one. And... somehow I don't have a good feeling but I guess it's ok.
Deck: Stella's Tarot
Card: Six of Pentacles Reversed
Meaning: (General) (Reversed) This card reminds you that self-care is important, and that you can't keep on giving without having anything in return. You can't change the way the other party reacts, but you can have an exchange of energy in other ways. There is no inequality here, so just make sure that you are not taken advantage of.
Reflection:
I probably should have taken note of it and be mindful of what is happening today. Alas, a tad too late. I had been warned but I never really take note of it.
It started fine. The hub sent me to the office and then I had a great 2 hours workshop throwing ideas on how to improve our efficiency. And then the hub offered to send me to meet my cousin but eventually I turned down because it will be too late.
Then half way through the journey, he called and told me that he's going to lead a tour group to Korea. That itself ruined a part of my day as I know that there is no way that I can stopped him from going, since in a way, it is related to work, despite the fact that I really don't like that long list of inconveniences due to him travelling. So, I didn't outright give him an answer.
By the time he messaged about 2 hours later, I happened to be in a meeting. And the conversation between us on WhatsApp went haywire. From the initial "I just want to complain a little" became an accusation of me being the same always and threatens of me unable to go overseas with friends in future. That I'm also not affected much nor doing anything even if he's overseas. And not looking at things from his perspectives.
What is the point of asking for permission when I'm not allowed to reject? Is this really respect? I would rather be informed than having to go through this argument again when I know the outcome will be the same. And furthermore, there's an easier way to convince the wife! Haven't he learned after so long?
Maybe it's my own fault. I should have suck it all up and kept everything to myself, no matter how minute that displease was. Moreover, I had already agreed in the first place in my head.
Indeed, reversed of six of pentacles. Am I giving in too much or is he the one? So maybe it's right that there's this "miscomm" that came up to show the imbalance feeling of how we both felt? He said it's for his business, I plot a Qimen chart and asked about the trip, the answers showed that the ROI won't be great. As a practitioner, of course I told him not to go. Is there anything wrong?
Whatever…… my mood is gone, and I can feel my energy level totally affected by this. Shall get a hopefully good night sleep and manifest that I feel better tomorrow.
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